So, here I sit at the computer again…I am looking over at my beautiful son and thinking this very well could be the last time I see him until he is 18. I am scared. But this is not my only fear. I am the very first to profess that a little self pity never hurt, but damn I am feeling very sorry for myself tonight, but not in the sense one may think. I am thinking Why me of course, then a little of is this it?, and then some of that very infamous It’s not fair. I am more worried about my kids than myself though. To me, I don’t really matter, but to those kids I mean the world.
I suppose if you read this far you are probably curious so I will inform. I have a brain lesion, and despite several tests the doctor cannot find a reason for it. So, in September I will be sent to the Mayo Clinic, but I am also supposed to start my graduate studies. In my mind Mayo is the place people go that are really sick…and I am scared. My mother is causing all kinds of drama despite knowing this information and threatening to sue her own daughter. My hubby is not being supportive at all and in fact is causing so much stress lately as he grows more and more lazy every day. Then he expects the world of me clean house, clean kids, laundry, dinner, everything….and I CAN’T DO IT! I don’t feel good. I have included some links on brain lesions so everyone reading is not confused … I am not INVINCIBLE. I am SCARED!
http://www.webmd.com/brain/brain-lesions-causes-symptoms-treatments?page=1
http://www.webmd.com/brain/brain-lesions-causes-symptoms-treatments?page=2
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